Develop Understanding Not Misunderstanding...

We our all blessed with a lot of beautiful relationships in our life..a few are the ones we are born with and there are others that we make on our own..whatever be the name,whatever be the reason the bottom line is they are all very important to us..they are the ties that join our hearts and make us realize that we are not alone..a friend of mine once told me"that we our all capable of living alone..statements like this that we can't live without so and so..are rubbish..when we have to ,then we have to..there is no room for weakness then..our survival instincts keep us going.."
partially I agree with her that yes when we have to then we have to........n off course we can survive..but then its just survival..its not living...living is when you can smile seeing somebody else happy,somebody Else's grief brings tears to your eyes, you rejoice in somebody Else's success..a life lived for and with others is a life lived worthwhile..
and today these bondings of the heart and relationships of years break in seconds..reason???MISUNDERSTANDING!
What is misunderstanding..when we try to convey something else and something else gets conveyed..ideas get jumbled up..misconceptions are formed and we chose to drift away from people whom we least want to..for me misunderstanding has its literal meaning ..yes..its is not a wrong interpretation of thought,words or intentions but a lack of understanding as the word rightly conveys..the understanding is missing..and this takes place when we stop listening,we stop talking,we stop thinking when we stop making that extra effort to go a little deep into things and taking that extra step and conveniently accept what appears on the surface..and let go off our precious ones..and i guess all of us have misunderstood someone or the other in our life or have been misunderstood by someone..communication is the answer but is does an explanation always justify everybody..may be not..and at times a wrong question asked in a wrong manner,at the wrong time proves to be the biggest question mark on a relationship and the trust on which it is formed and may leave behind a scar forever..and apologies and time don't always heal all wounds..
so if you say to someone"I trust you.."..then make sure you do
if you say "I understand.."then at least try to..
if you say"I am there..."..then show that you care..
we all have some beautiful bonds with some beautiful people in our lives..people we can't imagine or lives without..lets value those special souls and those special relationships and handle them with love and care and not allow a stupid misunderstanding to creep in and create distance between hearts..because if we let that happen then later we might be missing the only person who understood us.......!

[p.s:..sounds like a serious saddening post..witnessed a few people ruining their relationships,losing their special people and saying"there had been some misunderstanding"...sounds simple but is hell difficult when we have to go through it..I know everything in life does not have a solution and not everybody is worth staying in our lives but as the famous saying goes"That sometime later we realize that we lost diamonds while we were busy collecting stones"..so be careful..don't take your loved ones for granted and show them that you value them.and remember no misunderstanding is bigger than a true relationship..[sorry if sounds like a sermon..or a boring lecture...just wanted to share an opinion]..God bless you all]

Its Raining....

The monsoons have started and what should I say...I just love the rains...everything seems to be washed...nature at its best...the lush green grass..the dusky sky...droplets of water on the flowers and leaves..the mist around...the cool breeze...and the smell of the wet mud...woww...its awesome...sitting next to my window...I can see water splashing on the pane...with a nice hot cup of tea in my hands...and my favorite music playing in the background..and just being with myself..I'm experiencing bliss...nothing seems to matter...it feels with every drop of rain.. God is showering his blessings and love...to wash out all the worries..and refreshing not only the nature but me.....to sum up the experience in one word...beautiful!

[p:s-not a meaningful post...sorry...just wanted to share this so wrote it]

A Broken Dre@m

It had been dwelling in my eyes since a long time
I had kept it close to my heart and called it mine
To see it breaking was my biggest fear...
Now it flows down my cheek as a silent tear..
I want to yell,cry,shout and scream..
as before me lies my shattered dream..
I thought i would make it a reality and the world would see
but this not what destiny wanted it to be..
My eyes are empty..they lost their spark and glare
the dream took the hope along and left me alone in despair...

The proposal-4

"Riya...you don't need to cry...its completely okie if you don't feel the same..honestly even I'm a little surprised...how things changed..at first I thought I shouldn't tell you what I feel...but then somebody made me realize that I must tell you..so I did...but You don't need to worry about it.. its okie..there are no conditions in love..just stop crying yar...its not such a big deal..forget it...you know I'm a fool...take it light...actually on second thoughts na...me and you together...that ways...seems weired...hahahaa...[laughs ...trying to hide his tears..]..gosh...stupid I'm ..now please...stop giving those serious looks...its embarrassing..actually its good you didn't say a yes..I was thinking of taking a life time risk ...you saved me as always..[winks]..thanks buddy..common now smile...n lets go...before everybody else comes here..I'm hungry...[gets up...and starts moving...so that she doesn't see his moist eyes..]
"stop right there...."she yelled from behind...Sameer stopped there and then...n turned...Riya...came up to him..n said"you always have to ruin things...n try to show that you are very cool and all...I hate you...".."Riya..I.."he tries to say something but she interrupts him..."I thought this...I thought that...its okie...its alright..what is all this rubbish...you came...gave a speech...analyzed things your own way..n now you are going..accepting a decision I didn't even make...you over hyper freak..".."you couldn't sleep for 15 days ...I haven't slept since an year...I came to college and for me you were nothing more than a brat...I got to know you and you became my friend..then from my friend to my best friend and then..one fine day I realized what you realized at the prom night..since then everyday I come to college thinking that maybe today you will say something..but that day never came ...all that came my way was your statements when you used to make fun of me saying that only a nut case would marry me..I had left hope..thinking that we can't be anything more than friends..you would never feel the way I do..and have been trying to overcome those feelings since then...in fact the plan to go out of town for vacations was nothing but a means to go away from you..so that I don't fall weak...and today....all of a sudden...I wasn't expecting it..It was like a dream come true...so.....".[breaks down completely...]...Sameer...was shocked..surprised..[took two minutes to register the thought..]..held her arm and said.."fool...why didn't you tell me earlier...??.."..the moment he said this ..Riya..who was going all teary and weak..suddenly became firm ..and said.."ohh...so what were you expecting..I being a girl would go down on my knees with a ring in my hand..and propose to a boy who thinks I'm half mad..and the person who will marry me will be fully mad...is it?"..pushes him away.."just go..I don't want to talk to you..I hate you..you never understand"..Sameer knew he had messed up again ..he took a deep breath...went close to her..held her by her arms ..looked into her eyes and said.."I'm sorry for never understanding you..really sorry for hurting you everyday..but now I understand Riya..and promise to convert all those tears I have given you into smiles..please trust me..and silly when I had told you that only a fully mad fellow will marry you..you should have been intelligent enough to know that who can be more mad than me..stupid..come here now.."..pulls her close..hugs her...and whispers in her ears.."just for confirmation...all this means a yes na???..."...she smiles..n says.."yes..!".."then say that you love me...".."na...i hate you..."..she giggles...frees herself from his arms and runs towards the cafeteria..he screams.. from behind.."Miss.Marathon I Love You...."...she turns around...and replies.."I love you more Mr.white shirt blue jeans..."..
The following day...early morning Sameer gets ready and rushes to the park to meet the old lady...with a bouquet of flowers..and finds her sitting on the same bench where he had met her..he goes up to her and before he could say anything..she says.."congratulations...so won the battle...?"she smiles..."how do you know?"..Sameer asked....."don't ask stupid questions and tell me what happened...."...Sameer gave a detailed account of whatever had happened the previous day.."wow...you were way better than what I had thought you to be...I'm so happy..god bless you son.."..Sameer..hugged her and said.."thank you...if I have her in my life today its all because of you ..thank you so much...I told her about you..she said she would like to meet you...once she gets back from her grandma's place..she will be leaving in another hour..I have to go meet her at the station..".."ohh...so why are you wasting your time here...go..."..the lady said...Sameer gets up...and extends the bouquet towards her.."I got this for you..."..the old lady...was overwhelmed.."aww...thank you..."..she accepts it..and picks out a red rose from those flowers..gives it to him and says"give this to her...not from my side...but from yours.."...Sameer..takes..it with a shy smile.."now stop blushing and go..."...Sameer thanks her..once again..and heads towards the station.. the lady looks at the flowers...then the morning sun..and says.."what a beautiful beginning..."

[p.s:- firstly I am extremely sorry for the delay...had been busy with my admissions..secondly...thank you soooooooooooo much for reading and following the previous parts of the story and being so encouraging,supportive and patient...I hope I don't disappoint you with the last part...if I do...I'm sorry...will try to improve and come up with something better next time...once again thank you sooooo much...God bless!]

The Proposal-3

Both of them reached the cafeteria of the college..where the rest of the gang and Riya..were busy discussing vacation plans...the moment they stepped in, all eyes turned..everybody was stunned to see Sameer..but everybody except Riya knew the reason behind this sudden makeover..and as expected Riya who was both surprised and shocked.. screamed out loud.."whats wrong with you???first the phone call and now this??"..."I'm sure something is fishy...what is it????"..."ahmmm...na..I'm mean nothing...just like that...actually..."..he tried hard but couldn't get himself to say it..."what??wait you sit...I will get you something to drink...and then tell me what's going on.."she got up and headed towards the counter..Sameer heaved a sigh of relief"whewww...its difficult guys..."he said to all his friends..just then one of them said"Listen dude...its now or never...just say it the moment she comes back..we are all there with you...don't get nervous..".. As Riya returned with a can of juice..she saw..Sameer kneeling down..and all eyes on her full of expectations..she got confused..n said,"Now what guys????"...breaking the silence..with his eyes closed Sameer finally said.."Riya..its been five long years since we've been friends,we've faught,we've cried,we've laughed together,I know I am an idiot..and maybe nowhere close to the perfect man of your dreams...but I promise you one thing I will always keep you happy because tears in your eyes make my heart ache..I can't imagine myself without you..I don't know when and how this happened...but I realised it the day I saw u dancing with somebody else on the prom nite...I couldn't take it...it was like seeing my world in somebody Else's arms..I couldn't sleep for days together..was fighting with myself day and night to figure out..what was wrong with me..why am I feeling bad if my friend is getting close to someone...but now I know..I know its was my love for you...I don't know when you became more than a friend to me...but now life seems to be incomplete without you...when you are not around I miss you..my happiness loses its meaning when i don't share it with you..my pain becomes double when I know you are not beside me to comfort me...I Hate that deficit.. I want to be with u always..and promise to love you as long as my life permits..so ma'am[extends his hand towards her....with his eyes still closed]...can I have the pleasure of your company forever??"
Riya...was speechless...she stood there motionless for two minutes..Sameer opened his eyes and smiled at her..but his smile disappeared in a second when he saw tears running down her cheeks...He got up...took a step forward towards her..there eyes met..Riya..wanted to say something..but was over powered by emotions..n as Sameer came one more step close to her...she just ran out of the cafeteria.. everybody was confused...they were all looking at Sameer..and started moving out following Riya..But Sameer stopped everybody...and ran out himself ...to see what the matter was... He looked for her here and there and at last found her sitting on a bench under the shade of a tree...with her head down..and with tears flowing out of her eyes...he went up to her and said..."there u are...cross country runner...[smiles..but realises soon that it was not the time to be funny]..."...she was still looking down...and did not speak a word.. Sameer...went down on his knees again...wiped off her tears ...took her hand in his and said...

[p.s:..firstly thank u soooooo muchhh friends for appreciating my work and being so supportive,encouraging and patient with me..this is the first time..I'm writing fiction..n i think by now seeing the length of the comments i post on ur blogs..u must have inferred that i really get carried away once i get down to write..sooo sorrryyyy for stretching this one so badly..n thank u soooo for being so patient...will definitely try to wrap it up next time...till then...to be continued:p......n i don't mind being beaten up...u can drop a few slaps along with ur comments if u want to.. thank u sooooooooo much once again...all u guys are amazing...god bless]

The Proposal-2

The words of the lady motivated him..he got the boost he was looking for..not that he was confident of a "yes"..but he knew that he just had to say it to her today...come what may..immediately all doubt left him..and a smile flashed on his face..he got up enthusiastically..kissed the wrinkled hand of the lady and said.."thank u soooo much for being my guiding light and showing me the way when i was all lost..can u do me a favor..i want to meet u tomorrow morning here again..coz whatever happens today...i will need u 2morrow...if its a yes then u will be the first person 2 i want 2 share this special news with n if its no...guess i will need more of your wisdom n a stronger dose of encouragement...so will u please...???....
"off course son...i will..don't worry...my blessings are with u..I'm going to the church right now...will pray for you..n remember one thing don't go to her with any preconceived notions..whatever u say ,say it from Ur heart.."..he nodded in a pleasing manner..and ran back home...
Quickly he took a shower...came out..opened his closet..and there he went again.."what do i wear??" he picked out a green t-shirt with a rock band printed on it..and a pair of cargo pants.."noo...she wont like it..she hates such clothes..hmmm...then what..this blue one???naa...".."ufff...""yess!!!i know what will she like...simple and boring that she is...a blue pair of jeans n a white shirt.."..."god..love actually makes u do crazy things..if i wear that..everyone will think I've come for an interview..that's not my look...for her i will have to transform from a dude to a dud...gosh..."
"but that's how she has always imagined the boy of her dreams to be dressed..".."i can do that for her.."...he quickly called his friend and asked him to arrange for a white shirt...just then he noticed that he had not shaved his face..and was reminded..how Riya use to keep telling him to do that but he did it at his own leisure once in a week..and then in order to irritate her more he use to rub his cheeks against hers...n she is used to go"eeeeeeeew.."n run...he went into the washroom to shave his face and while shaving he was constantly smiling in front of the mirror...and was thinking how the girl he used to fight with day and night..irritate or play pranks on..became the love of his life..."life seems perfect when i have her around"..just then his cell phone rang...it was Riya...his heartbeat increased..taking a short deep breath in n out he picked up the phone.."idiot...where are you..????at least one day you could have got up early...you know i have to leave tomorrow..and we were all suppose to go out today...everybody is here in college...except u..u just come here..i will show u..."..she said..."I'm sorry yar...i will just be there"..he said in a subtle manner n disconnected the call...
Riya got the shock of her life.."sorry??????and him...i guess i called up the wrong person...ufff..."
Just then his friend Rahul came with the white shirt...he quickly went n changed..n came out...Rahul was amazed.."you know Sameer...U've never looked so good...Riya will be surprised for sure"..."I just hope she is surprised man...n not shocked...".."It will go fine yar don't worry...chal lets rush..we are already late...else forget the proposal...she will eat you for breakfast..."both of them have a laugh...and leave for college!

[to be continued]

The Proposal-1

IT was 4.15 a:m...n the guy who would usually be snoring till 8.45 even though his class would be at 9...everyday...was wide awake...turning sides on the bed..so restless so confused..."what will she think?" "it will be so awkward...what if she never speaks to me after that?.." "naa...I can't do this.." "but how can I let her go without telling her what I feel..."god...she is an idiot...she should have known it...I mean why do girls need to be told everything... why can't they understand...somethings on their own..".."I'm not saying it...let it be..".."I have to...".."well maybe i should write down..."...he ripped the centre page of his notebook...n began writing...Dearest Riya.."dearest??whats wrong with me...how can i call her that...naa....[striked it with a pen]...Riya...[hmm that's better]..he thought to himself...listen i want to tell u that i think i like u...i don't know y...its stupid...but.."but????why??"...this sounds bad...can't write it...forget it...he crumpled that paper in his hand and started walking from one corner of his room to the other...finally ..he threw himself on the bed..n said to himself.."i don't think I'm prepared..to say anything to her right now..but if i don't i will have to wait for another month..as she will be gone fr a month to her granny's place for vaccations.." "gosh...what do i do?..." "I'm sure ma'am must be sleeping a sound sleep..n here I'm going mad coz of her....".."what do I do...?till yesterday I could have opened my mouth..and said whatever i felt like..and now its all so difficult all of a sudden.."..while he was still trying to figure out what to do..the clock struck 6..the first rays of the sun..peeped into his room..he knew he won't be able to sleep anyhow...and was feeling uneasy within those four walls of his room...with the idea of refreshing himself he decided to go out for a walk... after a stroll across the park..he sat down on a bench..
and began saying his thoughts aloud.."this is the first time I'm going so crazy over something..i was never like that...?y??maybe i know...its coz before this whenever I had a problem I had Riya by my side to set things right...she used to absorb all my tensions and return my smile...and today when its about her... have nobody to turn to for help.....I feel so lost without her..."..sighs.."why am i complicating things...everything was so simple earlier...".."should I risk my friendship with her..for my heart's sake..???"..he covered his face with both his hands...n sat motion less for a while... Just then an old lady...who was sitting exactly behind him on the other bench..came and sat next to him..putting her hand on his shoulder she said,"I'm sorry i just overheard the conversation u were having with yourself... I don't know if i should be interfering...but seeing u so troubled...n confused..i just couldn't stop myself...do u think you would like to talk?".. "I don't know"..he said in an agitated manner..."u don't know????know what?that u want to talk about it or not???or that u should tell her that u love her??"..he stared at the lady for 2 minutes..n said"how easily u said it...wish it was that easy...I don't even know if I should be doing it..at all...."..a sudden smile appeared on the lady's face..n she said"what are you scared of...a NO??..".."nooo...its not that...but what if I lose her friendship as well..it will never be the same again.."...he quickly responded...becoming more soft in her tone she said "u thought of it this way..but did u ever think that if u won't say it..you lose the chance of making her stay in your life forever..one day without her and u r miserable..do you want to remain that ways forever..i know things might get awkward..if it doesn't function the way you expect it to..but then she is Ur friend she will understand..n I know u will make it easy for her...but if u don't say it u lose the battle before fighting it...don't let that happen son..go tell her.."

[to be continued]