IT was 4.15 a:m...n the guy who would usually be snoring till 8.45 even though his class would be at 9...everyday...was wide awake...turning sides on the bed..so restless so confused..."what will she think?" "it will be so awkward...what if she never speaks to me after that?.." "naa...I can't do this.." "but how can I let her go without telling her what I feel..."god...she is an idiot...she should have known it...I mean why do girls need to be told everything... why can't they understand...somethings on their own..".."I'm not saying it...let it be..".."I have to...".."well maybe i should write down..."...he ripped the centre page of his notebook...n began writing...Dearest Riya.."dearest??whats wrong with me...how can i call her that...naa....[striked it with a pen]...Riya...[hmm that's better]..he thought to himself...listen i want to tell u that i think i like u...i don't know y...its stupid...but.."but????why??"...this sounds bad...can't write it...forget it...he crumpled that paper in his hand and started walking from one corner of his room to the other...finally ..he threw himself on the bed..n said to himself.."i don't think I'm prepared..to say anything to her right now..but if i don't i will have to wait for another month..as she will be gone fr a month to her granny's place for vaccations.." "gosh...what do i do?..." "I'm sure ma'am must be sleeping a sound sleep..n here I'm going mad coz of her....".."what do I do...?till yesterday I could have opened my mouth..and said whatever i felt like..and now its all so difficult all of a sudden.."..while he was still trying to figure out what to do..the clock struck 6..the first rays of the sun..peeped into his room..he knew he won't be able to sleep anyhow...and was feeling uneasy within those four walls of his room...with the idea of refreshing himself he decided to go out for a walk... after a stroll across the park..he sat down on a bench..
and began saying his thoughts aloud.."this is the first time I'm going so crazy over something..i was never like that...?y??maybe i know...its coz before this whenever I had a problem I had Riya by my side to set things right...she used to absorb all my tensions and return my smile...and today when its about her... have nobody to turn to for help.....I feel so lost without her..."..sighs.."why am i complicating things...everything was so simple earlier...".."should I risk my friendship with her..for my heart's sake..???"..he covered his face with both his hands...n sat motion less for a while... Just then an old lady...who was sitting exactly behind him on the other bench..came and sat next to him..putting her hand on his shoulder she said,"I'm sorry i just overheard the conversation u were having with yourself... I don't know if i should be interfering...but seeing u so troubled...n confused..i just couldn't stop myself...do u think you would like to talk?".. "I don't know"..he said in an agitated manner..."u don't know????know what?that u want to talk about it or not???or that u should tell her that u love her??"..he stared at the lady for 2 minutes..n said"how easily u said it...wish it was that easy...I don't even know if I should be doing it..at all...."..a sudden smile appeared on the lady's face..n she said"what are you scared of...a NO??..".."nooo...its not that...but what if I lose her friendship as well..it will never be the same again.."...he quickly responded...becoming more soft in her tone she said "u thought of it this way..but did u ever think that if u won't say it..you lose the chance of making her stay in your life forever..one day without her and u r miserable..do you want to remain that ways forever..i know things might get awkward..if it doesn't function the way you expect it to..but then she is Ur friend she will understand..n I know u will make it easy for her...but if u don't say it u lose the battle before fighting it...don't let that happen son..go tell her.."
[to be continued]